The Purge

Yesterday I had indigestion which then led to running stomach. Within 24hours the toilet became my best friend. After the whole ordeal I felt as light as a feather. Infact I believe if a strong wind blew where I was it would snatch me up and toss me somewhere else. This situation reminded me of something that had happened earlier this year.
Sometime in January, I had a fire incident in my room in School. It's an off campus lodge and a self-contained room. My gas went kaboom! And the fire came like running water on the carpet and caught up with my leg. It burnt both legs but it was more severe on my right leg. This happened on a Tuesday morning just when I was about leaving for lectures.
Fast forward to Sunday Morning. It's one thing for me to miss church on a weekday but on a Sunday is simply unfathomable. So of course I packed my self off to church with my right leg swollen and a painful wound. Now I didn't know that sitting on a chair for some hours was going to exacerbate things. Aftter about Three hours my leg was twice as big as when I first came and the stress caused the wound to open up again. By the time I was ready to go back, I couldn't walk and my roommate had to carry me to the road where a good Samaritan decided to drop us off at my lodge.
While my roomie was carrying me, a friend of ours was with our bags and was supposed to follow behind us as earlier agreed. Understand that in the bag was the room key and our phones. By the time the good Samaritan had hailed at us to come in our friend was no where close and we certainly couldn't keep him waiting considering he was already doing us a favor.
So we got to the lodge and we sat down outside for maybe 10-  15 minutes before our friend came in.
Of course by then we were both pissed especially as her excuse for delaying was a very filmsy one. As we got into the room well I'm sure you can guess what happened. Some words were exchanged, tempers flared up and under 2 minutes the temperature in the room had changed. Suffice it to say it was a pretty strained atmosphere. After everyone was done shouting and trying to ignore the elephant in the room, I just sat there feeling so miserable. Do you know what I did?
I cried, lol. Yes I cried. I hadn't cried since this ordeal had started. I didn't cry when they had to peel out the burnt skin and pain was all I knew, I didn't cry when the nurse gave me pain killers that induced ulcer. Didn't cry at all that I was so embarrassed to be carried. Both the physical and emotional trauma didn't reduce me to tears but the fact that in my comfort zone, a place I should find peace was full of tension. Of course the tension was just the final keg that broke the camel's back and opened the flood gates to suppressed emotions.
After crying for about a minute or two, guess what I did?
I started laughing, hahahaha. Oh lord! It was so uncontrollable that I would have probably rolled on the floor laughing if not that my leg was bad. I just couldn't contain it. You know that kind where you laugh and your tummy begins to hurt, ehen!! It was that kind of laugh. My Friends at first were staring at me like I'd gone bonkers but then they too joined in the laughter.
I guess what I'm trying to say is this. Pick up all the hate you feel, all that anger, the dissapointments, the heartaches too, visualise it like a balloon you're filling up with air. Just when you get to the point where you know its about to burst release all the air, just release it all and purge yourself of all that negativity. I once read a quote that, "anger does more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than that which it is poured out upon." I believe that quote goes for all kinds of negative emotions too. All that anger, pain, bitterness, unforgiveness, heartache just harms you much more than it harms those who are recipients of those emotions.
You know after I'd cried and then laughed, I felt so relieved and free and it was like I could finally think beyond the fog and blind fold of that pain I had bottled up. I felt as light as a feather. That's how I know that if you do the same, you definitely will feel as I felt that fateful day. Purging yourself of Negativity opens you up to so many beautiful and amazing things around you that you couldn't see past all that hate and anger.
I know that the world has it's heartaches but it also carries within itself the capacity to provoke Joy only if you can look through the lenses of a heart purged of all negative emotions.
I know that when you do, your light will definitely break forth.
PS: my leg is very fine now, the wound healed very quick. That area of my leg just looks a bit dark like a skin discoloration. You wouldn't even know I had a fire related incident if I didn't tell you.